May 2012
How in love I am with you. You are literally the person that is always on my mind day and night. First person I think about when I wake up and the last person on my mind before I sleep. I know this sounds like every other person who falls in love with someone and it’s probably overrated but idgaf. When I’m at school you are the mental distraction that causes me to lose focus. I always get this rush of happiness and butterflies in my stomach when I see or talk to you. But then there are those times where I feel nothing but sadness and pain because reality hits me. All this pain because I ain’t got the fucking guts to tell you how I feel, and I don’t even know why. How hard could it be to tell someone how you feel about them?! HONESTLY wtf is wrong with me.. But of course there’s also the risk of losing you as a friend and for awhile now I’ve been debating with myself, risk it or not so far not has been winning.. Maybe eventually I’ll have the guts to risk our friendship or maybe one day you realize it is you I am talking about.. If only you knew..
And it sucks cause im afraid to tell u
April 2012
It feels like a bajillion needles have been stuck in me FUCK MAN kill me now end the damn pain…