Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. Do you know? Shit. I think you do. Shit. AHHHHH NO NO THIS ISN’T HAPPENING. BREATHE… Okay I am calm now, I don’t think you know… but that’s what I want right now, but if you do then SHIT. Oh no, oh no… no no no mental breakdown… SHIT. FUCK. GAHHHHHHH. Why is this happening to me… why can’t I just like someone who will like me back. I am sad… very sad… time to go into depression mode… sigh. Why am I so into you? Why can’t you just not exist in my mind right now… WHY!? idk what I’m doing. I’m stressing over this for no reason, I shouldn’t even be stressing cause we don’t even have a thing going on but I am. WHY!? This sucks, it’s going to be a long stressful, mixed emotion type of week… yeah……… why do I like you for? ): I think I need to start drinking again, I need this to go away even if it’s temporary. Because temporary feeling good is better than nothing. I want to forget this whole situation because this is too much for me. Alcohol is my safe haven.